“Let people grow. Believe that people can change and improve. Is that faith? Yes! Is that hope? Yes! Is it charity? Yes! Above all, it is charity, the pure love of Christ.” –Jeffrey R. Holland
Making mistakes is a part of mortality. Part of finding true joy is learning to forgive others and forgive yourself. Don’t let a misstep or misunderstanding get in the way of your happy ending.
Recently,
after the parting of a dear friendship, I turned to the scriptures,
other books and anything I could find, on the subject of forgiveness.
You see, I am one of those people who seem to have to seek
forgiveness quite often in one's life. No matter how hard I try to
overcome weaknesses in my life, they somehow seem to find ways to
surface. The factors involved in the dissolution of this dear
friendship, are non-relevant, but suffice it to say, my fault. Sin,
hurt, and disrespect are some of the keywords involved in the
separation of this kindred union. Through this trial, I searched for
answers on how to extend forgiveness and receive forgiveness. Let me
state here, I much more needed forgiveness than needed to extend
forgiveness.
As I
turned to the scriptures, I found many that talked of the necessity
of the role of forgiveness and repentance. I teach preschool and have
found that children are a great example of extending forgiveness.
Kids will often take toys from each other and not want to share, may
even hit their best friend, and yet turnaround and 5 minutes later be
playing with the offender once more. I remember growing up age six or
seven, having a fight with my best friend (I think even a bite was
involved) and saying she can't play with me. Within two hours we
were at her pool swimming the day away.
So why
do we as adults struggle so much with extending forgiveness to
others? Is it because the offenses and hurts are often times much
larger and more hurtful? Is it because our hearts have been through
much more and it's our defense mechanism? Is it our egos? Is it the
insistence of friends and family members not to forgive and love?
The
scriptures say, it doesn't matter! We are to forgive. “Wherefore, I
say unto you, that ye ought to forgive one another; for he that
forgiveth not his brother his trespasses standeth condemned before
the Lord; for there remaineth in him the greater sin.”(D&C
64:34–35) “I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of
you it is required to forgive all men” (D&C 64:9–10). There
are many other scriptures I could list here as well. It is clear as
day.
I am
going to make a bold claim that we need to step it up in the
forgiveness arena. It is not merely enough to say that you have
forgiven someone but that you won't forget, or say that you forgive
them but are not going to help them home. We are brothers and
sisters, we have a common goal, a common outcome, a common purpose;
to get home to our Heavenly Father. We all sin, we just sin
differently. To judge one's persons weaknesses as worse than your own
is wrong. We all need Christ, we all need forgiveness. The Lord says,
“Behold,
he who has repented of his sins, the same is forgiven, and I, the
Lord, remember them no more” (D&C 58:42).
If the Lord remembers them no more, why should we? Do we want the
Lord to have the attitude that He can forgive but not forget? No! So
we need to step up our game and try as we might, to follow the
Savior's example in forgiveness.
One day
as I was reading Green Eggs and Ham, by Dr. Seuss, to
my preschoolers, it hit me. Everything I have been learning about
giving and seeking forgiveness has been centered around concepts that
to me are a little foreign, a little different looking, and
definitely hard to swallow. I mean, I'm really expected to love the
offender as if nothing happened? But she hurt me! But I don't want
her in my space! But what if it happens again? My ego screamed, “no
way will I let that person back in my life, but I will say I forgive
them.”
Just
like in the book Green Eggs and Ham, Sam I Am chases an unknown
character around trying to convince him to eat of green eggs and ham,
God has done the same thing with me. Yes, I'm expected to forgive,
yes I'm expected to let people back in my space, yes I'm supposed to
love with a God like love. Indeed, God has done it to several people,
chase them trying to get them to try something that looks different.
And guess what? When I tasted the green eggs and ham, I liked them!
The different thing God may be chasing us around with, is forgiving
and loving in a God-like Christ-centered way, deeper than ever
before.
So how
do we forgive someone fully, the way the Lord intends for us to
forgive someone? I guess it's easier for me to illustrate what it's
like being a prisoner of being the one who offends others.
This
past Christmas season was the hardest I've ever had, due in part to
my friendship ending. You see, I'm a single mom, without any
siblings, trying to raise two kids. When I became a single mom, the
Lord blessed me with my friend. Elder Burton Howard said, “If
you want something to last forever, you treat it differently. … It
becomes special because you have made it so.
I didn't do the things to care for the friendship and treat it as the
gift God blessed me with. So this Christmas season, I would watch the
Church messages and devotionals, read Uchtdorf's Stop IT test, with
a renewed spirit, hoping and begging the Lord that my friend would
feel this spirit and forgive me with open arms. I was hoping and
praying for a reconciliation to be apart of the traditions we shared
with her and her extended family. Hoping for a reconciliation to
continue our divinely placed friendship.
As each
passing day came, ignoring continued, my heart sunk. How could it be?
This person I loved dearly and who felt the same for me couldn't
forgive, or let us partake of the Atonement? Couldn't we heal and
support each other in God's will once more? I was a prisoner. I chose
to check out of life with my kids, my other friends, and mope! A
simple phone call, a letter, or a text, could have made the
difference.
That's when it hit me, I need to make sure I always extend forgiveness to anyone who has or may hurt me. The Green Eggs and Ham Heavenly Father has been chasing me with, forgive others completely, to a Christ like level.
In James
Ferrell's book “Falling to Heaven” he describes
forgiveness as “repenting of my failing to love. Forgiveness is
simply the word we use to describe this kind of repentance.” So he
says that when you forgive someone you are just saying sorry you
didn't love them through it all anyway. He goes on to say that
forgiveness is the most “crucial kind of repentance” there is. If
we don't repent of withholding forgiveness then we won't be forgiven.
So how's it done you are asking?
Love! As
I have been learning, and is easier said than done at times, love is
God's way. It is the easiest, quickest, most healing, righteous way
to following God's directive and moving forward. Have God like
compassion for others mistakes, weaknesses, and struggles they are
dealing with. You see, even though you may be suffering while you
love someone, that is the example the Savior set for us. Think about
His sufferings in Gethsamene or His experience on the cross. You
see, if we are all truly brothers and sisters in the spiritual sense,
which is much more than the physical sense, then our devotion to each
other and working things out through God-like love should be
priority.
When the
Savior suffered for our sins, He didn't say, “Okay, you hurt me, I
need some space from you and time to heal.” In fact, He saw a
greater need to love us, He begs for us to draw closer to Him. If we
have this same attitude and compassion and love for our offender's we
will truly draw closer to God. We will help open the doors to healing
for ourselves and open the prison doors for those who are seeking
forgiveness.
That
brings the question, how do we seek forgiveness from others? The
question begs the same simple answer. Repentance and Love! For what
felt like the longest time, after the falling out with my friend, I
would react, seek ways to get her to forgive me, seek ways for her to
understand my weaknesses, and seek for ways for her to feel
compassion towards me. Then it hit me! Free agency! No matter what my
friend chooses to do with our friendship, it is my responsibility to
repent, love her more, and make amends to the best of my ability. I
cannot force her back in my life, force her to forgive me, force her
to see anything. Those are her choices. But it's my choice to repent
and act out of love.
I was
driving home one night when the thought came to me, “you have done
all that you can, now sit back and let Me work miracles.” I learned
a lesson that night, that I was trying to force someone back in my
life because I was seeking forgiveness the wrong way. The way you
seek forgiveness is by repentance. When your heart hurts, repent.
When you are struggling, repent. Whether you are repenting that you
did something to offend someone or repenting that you failed to love
someone, the answer still is, repent!
This
past October conference Uchtdorf spoke on regret. He said, “However,
the older we get, the more we tend to look back and marvel at how
short that road really is. We wonder how the years could have passed
so quickly. And we begin to think about the choices we made and the
things we have done. In the process, we remember many sweet moments
that give warmth to our souls and joy to our hearts. But we also
remember the regrets- the things we wish we could go back and
change.” However, the Atonement, repentance, and extending
forgiveness goes a long way in minimizing regrets. I struggle with
these things but am learning the quicker we do these things the less
regrets and quicker the healing power of the Atonement can take
place.
Eyring
in the same conference gives us this closing advice. He emphasizes
the great need to both seeking forgiveness and extending forgiveness.
“The pavilion that seems to be hiding you from God may be fear of
man rather than this desire to serve others. The Savior’s only
motivation was to help people. Many of you, as I have, have felt fear
in approaching someone you have offended or who has hurt you. And yet
I have seen the Lord melt hearts time after time, including my own.
And so I challenge you to go for the Lord to someone, despite any
fear you may have, to extend love and forgiveness. I promise you that
as you do, you will feel the love of the Savior for that person and
His love for you, and it will not seem to come from a great distance.
For you, that challenge may be in a family, it may be in a community,
or it may be across a nation.”
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